okok.. fire day. had enough already okay.. get fed up by ppl.. by who by wad? the stupid countdown la. ask ppl who wan go and go where? no reply.. nvm.. then meldon tht side.... she (not meldon) keep on asking me to go. cant i go with yuwen and jieying?? wtf.. i need freedom too!!

so when she gave me a sms saying tht i depend on ppl and dun have my own decision, i'm pissed.. i replied her something back tht made her angry too. ya i do tht purposely. so wad? dua bai ar? pui.. i dun care lor. any other ppl can get angry y not me? cos i tooooooo good already i tell u people. taking me for granted... I DARE to say tht I dun have any attitude problem, whether serious or light!! i'm not showing off my temper or anything. this is my blog! i can write anything tht i wan! i understands myself more than anyone in this world!! TELL ME!!!! when did u ppl ever see i flared up at u!! tell me la!!!!! except my stupid brother and sister, no one else!! fcuking assholes..

after i sent her the "angry" sms, there wasnt any reply from her. instead she told yuwen to ask me to fucking enjoy the countdown. ya! nice words.. "fucking enjoy.."

juz before.. meldon called me. okay.. talk bout wad had happened. talk lor talk lor.. so i told him i'm fed up and blablabla... he had asked me to send her an sms, content has to be filled with the word "sorry.." wtf?
i told yuwen earlier on. y should i say sorry to her? y not she say tht to me? wadever ppl said i abide like a dog. i'm juz giving in. cos i'm really fine with ANYTHING!! anything!!!! this doesnt mean tht i dun have my own decisions!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*sigh*

in the end wads gonna happen? a crack in our friendship tht has juz been built.. haiz... i dun wan tht to happen...........
i have juz finished typing a 6-pages-long-sms preparing to send to her b4 i sleep at 6am later. took me so long to form it into a "message..." and tht cost 30 cents. but who cares la........ after reading my 6-pages-long-sms she wan to forgive me then good lor. dun wan then forget it la.. 6-pages-long-sms... like an essay man.. maybe i'm silly to do tht la. but....... can u see i'm giving in again.......... i'm always the one. haiz.....

hAiz......... juz...... forget...... it................

btw, i have received the J candy and card from ahloy liao. thx thx.. =)

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