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Saturday, March 26, 2005

its been 8 days since......

time really flies. and the feelings isnt so strong anymore. but its still quite strong ba... i dunno how to say. but theres still......... mayb its time to...... but ppl always do things to make me errr........ fall back =(
partly is myself dun bearing to......... wo bu she de!!!!! so silly..
everyday guarding my handphone.. waiting and waiting.. whenever i received a msg or a call.. i hope so much tht it'll be....
but its not...... so... like tht lor.. luckily other frens are still talking to me to kill times. or else i'll be bored to death. sometimes still get to chit chat and gossip over the phone with yuwen for long hours. wahaha.. good frens are rare nowadays. i'm so lucky..

haiz...
if last year august he didnt wave back to the girl on the bus,
her frens woulnt say bout him and her.
then she wouldnt get to spot who he is in the sch hall one day..
and she wouldnt xxx for him.
she wouldnt spend time daily trying to take juuuuz a look at him in sch..
one day they gotten each other's contact in the middle of the night thru... the net!
she was happy. he treat like nothing happened cos he din know anything =/
things were fine and sweet at first..
slowly.. he too xxx for her.
simple as tht. both reveal feelings for each other one nite thru... sms!
she was in 7th heaven and even in her dream land, she dreamt of him!
in sch both will smile smile to each other. shy shy.. and then say "hi.."
she felt so happy and sweeeet. was almost jumping all around her frens. he? dunno..
she care so much. but he dun seem to care =/
sometimes things are juz so fine.. so fine tht it keeps her happy and smiling non-stop thru out the whole day. til her bed times, she think of him b4 she sleeps.. everyday.
wondering is he doin the same thing too? =/
he did sweet talk to her b4. juz once.. but she wonder if he ever realised or remembered it?
she wouldnt forget bout wad he had said b4 and takes them seriously. but he? dunno.. =/
slowly again.. things started to change.
she started to hate him. at the same time likes too..
he dun realises if anything was wrong.
now things are not the same anymore.
she was feeling sad and moody. he? mayb to him, nothing had ever happened b4..
she do things to make herself get over him..
like looking at other cute boys.. gossip.. eating alot.. etc. but no use.
everyday when happy times are over, she'll think think think and become sad again.
everything she sees, everything she hears and everything she do reminds her of him. seems like everything around her are being linked to him.. -___-
how to get over when things are like tht? hai.....
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really la.. i nv felt like this b4. i dun like this mind-guessing game. so sucky..
everytime yao ku you ku bu chu lai.. so terrible..
and how can i dun think so much? i canttttttt....
you said wad mayb we could think for awhile.. make each other think more..
in the end we are not talking anymore... =(
i dunno wad are u thinking..
i.... i......... i............... !!!
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after jy and yuwen left my house today, they got me a new wallpaper. everytime i saw my wallpaper i was like abit fed up. and made alot of "sighing" sounds while i was eating and facing it juz now. lol.. but i dun feel like replacing it. haha... tell me wads wrong with me. wahaha... goin crazy.. hahha.. got to do maths later. maths maths maths maths!!!!!!!! maths make me mad!!!!!!!!!! hope tml i wun make my cousin fed up again. or i'll feel very guilty. my day would be ruined.. ahhhhhh......
i got feelings i'll disappoint him again. cos alot of qn i dunno how to do. haiz..... sorry sorry in advance..

now slowly... i like the wallpaper.. ahhaah.. keep looking at it. the look of it makes me smile.. =)
why.... lol.. so cuuuute.. haiz.

Sparkling Diamond
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